Regrets

My regrets would be a long list. My baba was an independent man and never discussed his problems with anyone.
Ma was not so supportive and I was his only confidante. But I failed him. Past 2 years I was so much into myself that I over looked his flailing health. I could have forced him for a medical check up. He hid his high blood pressure problems from me as he didn't want to trouble me. I wish he had told me. Wish I have booked his tickets for a check up along with mom. He  would be alive then. He had no ailments and he fought so hard during his end just like he did in his life. I wanted to cook for him. Make him eat all that I want. He was a foodie and I know what he loves to eat. I wish I had done more. Had he not been building the house he would be stronger and alive. Had my younger brother done something in life he would be alive. Everything conspired against him and I lost him. How will I live without him.